Lets Not Complicate This Lol....

Why Cant Things Just Be Simple

I Love You

You Love Me...

What Happened 2 The Ideals Of Idealism??

Be Honnest

We Couldnt Be A More Ideal Match

I Make You Chuckle

You Make Me Die Of Laughter

Self Proclaimed NERDS

Sat In The Library During Lunch

Coolest Kids We Know,

Fuck What The General Public Thinks

Despite Not Being 2gether Often

We Spend Insane Amounts Of Time 2gether

{Thank God For Unlimited Calling Plans =] }

We Watch GOD AWFUL Movies

And Critique Them 2 The Point Of Uncontrollable Laughter

We Even Make Niggas In The Nxt Row Break Their Phones

We Share Deep Secrets

And Greatest Fears...

As Tho They Are Not The Sources Of Self Consciousness That They Are

We Argue About The Trivial

Partially Because We Can

And Partially Because Were We Like 2 Argue

But Mostly

Because We Are 2 Much Alike 2 Genuinely Disagree

When You Say

"I Love You"

Nothing In My Head Says

"Does She Really Mean It?"

Because Your Genuiness

(Often Mistaken For Ass-holish Qualities)

Is Your Greatest Asset

We Are So Far Beyond

Simply Finishing Eachothers Sentences

We Finish Thoughts

Even Before They Have Been Spoken

We Do Unmentionable Things On Skype (Giggles)

We Share The Hardtimes

Maybe Even A Few Tears

Becuase We Know

That When All Else Fails

WE Don't ...

But Mostly,

We Love Each Other.

Genuinely....

Now

Tell Me

Can 3 States of Geographic Isolation

Stop THAT??

~ Santo ~

Whenever, However You want Me Babe

This Line Has Been In My Head For A Min

"Focus Baby

Dont Look At Me

Stare Right Thru Me

Understand That My Heartbeat Murmurs

2 Mock Your Rythem

Yeah My Nutz

The Other Girls Want Em....

But They Cant Have"

Your My Sweet Tangerine

Lets Make A Smoothy =]

~ Santo ~

Food For Thought

How can you say goodbye.....

to someone who had you at hello?

I Flat Footedly REFUSE

To Accept That

THIS

Means Less 2day Than It Did Yesterday....

Way Back Post...

"It is us that complicates love to the point of no return

It is us that twists and destroys loves precious innocence

We want it so bad, we get it and don't know what to do with it.

So we do too much, and our love becomes lost and ruined

Soon a distant memory, we forgot what went wrong the first time and allow history to repeat itself

When love finds me again, it will not be a waste of time.

When love finds me again, I wont do too much, in fact I will do nothing

Except allow love to take over and do what it does ....

... make happiness everlasting =]"

Embarrising... But Oddly Enough... I Think Its Time I Follow Good Advice....

Stop Doing So Much

And Just Do

Nothing

Catchin' Feelins'

"Ive Got... 99 Problems

And Their All BITCHES"

Sike Naw...

Lol

Just A Cool Line

But I Do Have A Problem...

Or Is It A Problem

Feelins

Despite Intuition Telling Me Otherwise

I Have Caught Them

And Not In The Typical "Ill Beat Yo Ass" Sense

More Like The Literal "I Now Have Feelins That I Didnt Have In July" Way

The Game Plan Was Friendship

But I Find Myself Yearning For More

Ive Never Been One For Complacency

Never Been One 2 "Settle"

I Just Go For It

GRAB LIFE BY THE BALLZ

As Moolah Would Say

But This Instance Of Catchin Feelins Has a Distinct Drawback

DISTANCE

A Good Friend Of Mine Told Me Yesterday That

"Distance Makes the Heart Grow"

And I Must Say I Believe Her...

Maybe That Is The Explanation For This Note

But It Also Gives way 2 Jealousy

And Envy

And A Whole List Of Other Emotions That are Honnestly Brand New 2 Me

(Idk Where Im Going With This Lol )

I Guess I Just Need 2 Clear My Mind

This Post Has No Real Structure

Or Definite Point for That Matter

Maybe Thats Why I Like It

Idk

I Miss Our 8 Hour Long Convo's

I Miss Talking To you

These Dreams Ive Been Having All Seem 2 Have A Common Denominator

(Loosing You)

Which Is Funny

Because in The Literal Sense

I Dont Even Have You

Maybe Im Just Catchin' Feelins'

This Time in The Traditional Sense

Yet Another Example Of My Psuedo Envy For My Collegiate Friends

As They Pass Me By In Accademia

My College Friends

Who Seem 2 Be Plowing Past Me In The H.O.V Lane Of Lifes Highway

My College Friends

Who Now... As Of Today

All Have Girlfriends

But Im Not An Envious Person

So Im Sure This Is Not The Case

And These "Feelins" are Not Brand New

So Im MORE Sure This Is Not The Case

I Have Come 2 The Conclusion that I Caught The Feelins The First Time We Met

And They Grew The First Time We Chilled

And They Have Been Intensifying Since The Day You Departed

(Yup Yup.. Still Freestylin Without Rhyme Or Reason Lol)

But Feelins Are Only Feelins

And They Mean Nothing If The Feelin' Being Felt Isnt Mutual

"Time Provides The Rope... But LOVE Will Tie The Slipknot...."

I Guess A Nigga's Tryna Get Hung In His Feelins

Lol

~ Santo ~

I Really Just Dont Want.....

The NEXT

To Be Like The LAST....

THIS is the terrifying aspect of loving some one.....

~ Santo ~

Am I High?

Havent Smoked In A Lonnnng Whille

But Ive Been High On Life For Bout a Month Now

Everyday I Here Your Voice

Is Like A Day With The Spliff In My Hand

**Bliss**

Just This Time Last Year

I Couldnt See Myself Having Feelings For Anyone

EVER

I Swore Off Sex

I Swore Off Dating

I Swore Off WOMEN

But *Sigh*

There Is Just Something About This Girl From Portsmouth

She Just Gets Me...

Not On That Empathetic Type Shit

Like She Actually GETS ME

99% Of The Time, We Are Thinking The EXACT Same Thing

99% Of The Time We Are On The EXACT Same Page

Its Slightly Disturbing

Slightly Erotic (lol)

But MostlyIts

Euphoric

I HATE Talking On The Phone

But I LOVE Talking To You On The Phone

And Im Pretty Sure You Are The Only Person With The Ability 2 Make Me Contradict Myself In This Manner

I Genuinely Miss The Time We Got 2 Spend 2gether At The End Of This Summer

I Miss The Kisses

The Hugs

The 45 Minute Embraces

The Failed Ollie Attempts

The Va Fitteds At The Corner Store

The Baptismal Swims

The Mosquito Bites

But Mostly

I Just Miss You

And It Is In This Missing You That I Find My Greatest High

The Thought Of Their Being An US

No Longer Just A Santo

Nor Just A Zombie

But A Union Of The 2

Wishful Thinking

Or Destiny

Only Time Will Tell

But In The Mean Time Between Time

Im Gonna Keep Taking These Tokes Of Life

Cuz Apparently Im Puffin On Sum Gooooood Shit

~ Santo ~

Is THIS what i have become.....

Soooo

G-Shock Says Its 244....

I Have Just Awoken 2 my Mother Standing Over My Bed.....

She Has A Very Worried Look On Her Face

My Pillow Is Soaked....

My Eyes Are Blood Shot Red

Apparently... for the last hour or so....

I Have Been Having A Horrible Horrible Nightmare

My Mother Has Quoted Me Saying

"Take Me, Not Her... She Has So Much More 2 live For"

And

"Run! He's Got A Gun"

I Never Talk In My Sleep.... Ever

And For The Last 5 Mins Or So...

I Had Been Crying Profusely...

I Usually Remember My Dreams

But I Have Absolutley No Idea What This One Is About

(gotta hunch tho)

Gonna Pray

a lil meditatoin

Then Hopefully Back 2 sleep.....

Is This Is What I Have Become??

A Slave 2 My Own Emotions....

They Know They Cannot Completly Conquer Me Whille Im Awake

So Their Attempting 2 Attack My Sub-Consious???

Or Am I Just Going Crazy.....

Who Knows (Shoulder Shrug)

~ SANTO ~

Sooner Or Later

You Know Its Really Kinda Amusing

Jimi Hendrix Said It Best

"Castles Made Of Sand

Fall In The Sea

Eventually"

It Has Been The Story Of My Life

Great Intentions

Perfect Plan

But

IT ALL COMES CRASHING.....

But As I Have Previously Stated

Im Used 2 It....

Things Never Work Out For Me

So Im Kinda Used 2 The Dissappointment

Soooooooooo

Why Does It Hurt So Badly This Time?!?!?!

I Usually Handle The Emotions With A Wag Of The Finger

And A Shrug Of The Shoulder....

But Im STILL sad....

Im STILL crying...

Worse Now Than When I Watched Her Walk away at 4:14 pm on august 31st

I Couldnt Let Her See Me Sweat

Couldnt Let Her See Me Breakdown

I Kept Reminding My Self That I Had 2 Be Strong For HER

Because SHE Is Leaving behind alot more than I

SHE Has Family That Im More Than Positive She Misses Dearly

I Had 2 Be Trill So That SHE could Remain Trill......

But Ohhhhhh When That Door Closed......

Im (for Once In My Life) At a Loss For Explanation

How Can This Girl Who I Have Only Been Consistently Talking To For a Month Or So

Make This Deep Of An Impact On My Heart

I Mean

When We Dropped Terrica Off At College I Didnt Cry....

When Toneeshia Left For Baltimore.... I Didnt Cry

Short of A Death In The Family

I Never Cry

I Have Developed This Perpetually Copasetic State Of Mind

My Dad Calls It "Teflon Zelly"

Nothing Gets 2 Me.....

EXCEPT Nicole Rachelle Askew Moving Away

I Miss You Babe

~ SANTO ~

Ugghh Been Awhille

But I Promise Im Back

A Post A Day Keeps The Depression Away = ]

I Get The Feeling Im Most Def Gonna Lose A Follower...

My Next Couple Posts May Not Be What Sum Of My Friends Wanna Here

But....

Do I Care....

Pssshhhhhh

lol

~Santo~

New Moto For 09.... "Fuck It, Might As Well"

My Whole Life I Have Kept Myself In This Box.....
Ive Always Been Afraid 2 Go Outside The Box
2 Leave The Comfort Zone

If There Was A Chick That I Was Really Feelin...
Rather Than Risk Gettin Shitted On
Id Play The Friend Role

If Their Was A Goal I Really Wanted 2 Achieve
I Would Settle With Getting Half Way

But Fuck It...
Nigga I Might As Well Go Ballz Out
What Do I Have 2 Lose???

I Have No respect/street cred
only a select few really fuck with me
Life As It Is Cannot Really Get Much Worse

Couple Months Ago.. I Decided 2 tell the girl i had the biggest crush ever on how i felt
At The Time It Felt Almost Like Death
The Fear Of Rejection Was Palpabe....
But Ya Know What
Even Tho Ish Isnt Working out Exactly How i Would Have Liked It 2

I DONT CARE!!!!
Im more proud of myself than anything...
For Once I Steped Out On Faith
Wasnt Nearly As Hard As I Thought Either

It Has Basically Convinced Me That This Whole Risk Taking Thing Is Cake
And That The Bigger The Risk... The Bigger The Reward
So (2 sound hella cliche)
"In 09 Im Goin For Mine"

No Time For Complacency
No Time For Bitchassness
If U Dont Like It...
Thats Cool
Just Realize That People Grow...
I Need 2 Stretch Ma Legs
And I Feel This Is A Very Neccessary Step In My ultimate Plane For....

WORLD DOMINATION!!!!!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

~ Santo ~

Off The Top Of The Dome....

im gonna try sumthing diferent...

Bare with me....

im just gonna ramble...

im gonna write EXACTLY whats  going thru my mind for the next couple mins...

and see how this shit comes out

Real 

Fucking 

Shit Mr. West

If That Freestyle Didnt Sum Up Santo Fucking Adams

Idk What The Hell Else Will

"I just wanna Be a Real Boy...." With a Real Woman Lol

U Can  Kinda Disregard The "Love" Post....

Nigga Was Hella In His Feelings and Shit Lol

It Just Gets Frustrating Ya Know...

True Love Is All I Really Want In This Life

And It Seems Like The Recession Has Hit Love too

Everytime... EVERY-FUCKIN TIME.....

Sumthing ends up happening 

FUCK THESE FUCK ASS NIGGAS THAT MESS THESE FEMALES OVA

Niggas.... Yall In The Way

Just Lettin It Be Known lol

soooo many times ive seen it happen

shits like the plaugue

Girls Are Startin 2 Get Fed Up with Dudes At A Younger And Younger Age

FUCCCKKKK....

I Dont Know Who Lied And Told Me That 

Happyness=Relationship...

But Damn do I Believe Them lol

Gahhh

Mgmt Is Amazing

I Was Feeling Completly Shitty Until The Psychadelic Melodies Of 

"Of Birds, Moons And Monsters"

Swept Me Up And Wisked Me Away Into A Land Far Far Away.....

I Swear I Dont Even Need Weed...

I Can Just Pop In Oracular Spectacular And Get High Off Their Music 

EVERYTIME

Back 2 These Fuck Ass Niggas

Why Do Yall Even Bother Fuckin Dating These Girls

If U Just Wanted Sum Butt Thats More Than Easy Enough 2 Get Now Adays

But Yall Always Pick The Cream Of The Fucking Crop...

And Then Fuck Them Over...

So Niggas Like Myself Are Stuck With Nuffin

All Cuz Yall Done Fucked Their Heads Up.....

Niggas Always Complainin Bout How Girls Think We All The Same

But 99 Percent The Time It Be these Dudes Who Are The Lyin Ass 

Trifilin Ass Niggas The Women Speak Of.....

I Cant Change The Stereotype by myself damnit

I Also Think Thats Why So Many Of The Cute Girls Are Goin Lesbo Now adays

Why Bother With A Nigga Thats Ineveitably gonna cheat and call u bitches and hoes and all that shit... when u can have a chick who understands EXACTLY where you coomin from....

Ugggghhhh

Shit Makes Me Furious

Dudes Is Fuckin Up mannnnnn

Pinnochio Story

I tried to do my best:

Pinocchio story - kanye west

Wise men say (x3)
You`ll never figure out real love (x3)

Its so crazy
I got everything figured out
But for some reason i can never find what real love is about
No doubt
Everything in the world figured out but i can never seem to find what love is about

Do you think i sacrificed real life
For all the things, the flashing lights
Do you think i sacrifice real life
For all the things, the flashing lights

There is no gucci i can buy
There is no louis vuitton to put on
There is no ? they could sell
To get my heart out of this hill
My mind out of this jail
There is no clothes that i could buy
That could bring back the time
There is no vacation spot i could fly
That could bring back a real piece of real life
Real life, what does it feel like?
I ask you tonight, i ask you tonight
What does it feel like, i ask you tonight
To live a real life
I just want to be a real boy
They always say kanye, he keeps it real boy
Pinocchio story is, i just want to be a real boy
[ Kanye West Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] 
Pinocchio story is to be a real boy

Its funny pinocchio lied and that`s what kept him from it?
I tell the truth and i keep runnin
Its like im looking for something out there trying to find something
I turn on the tv and see me and see nothing

What does it feel like to live real life to be real
Not some posiedon? on tv that no can really feel
Do you really have the stamina
For everybody that sees you and that say wheres my camera?
For everybody that sees you and says sign the autographs
For everybody that sees you and says that you all that
You all that
I just want to be a real boy,
Pinocchio story goes, i just want to be a real boy
Pinocchio story goes

And there is no ? to guide me no one right beside me
The only one was behind me i cant find her no more
I cant find her no more i cant,
The only one that come out on the tour and stays
Back when i was living home in her room and this was all up in dreams

And the fame will be got caught and the day i moved to la
Maybe it was all my fault, all my fault to be a real boy
Chasing the american dream, chasing everything we seen, up on the tv screen
And the benz left and the clothes left, and the hoes left and the hoes and????????
???????real boy, they say kanye you keep it too real boy
Perspective, wise man say, one say you`ll find your way
The wise man say, youll find your way
The wise man say, youll find your way
The wise man say

Love....

Is A Fucking Myth....

A Concept They Teach U 

2 Syce Your Head

It DOES NOT EXIST

At Least Not For Santo....

Or Maybe It Does...

And I Just Will Never Find It....

Real Shit....

Ive Come 2 A Conclusion About This Whole Life Thing

Shit Just Isnt Meant For Me

There Are Winners 

And 

There Are Loosers.....

I Dont Think I Was Meant 2 Win

I Mean... I Never Fuckin Win

Shit Never Goes My Way.. Despite My Best Efforts

Ive Been Looking Over My Life, and its been the EXACT same story 

OVER AND OVER AND OVER

Shit Looks Ok For A Minute

Then Sumthing Happens 2 Turn That Shit Inside Out

Ex.

I Finally Get Settled Into A School And Neighborhood Where Im Comfortable

For The First TIme In My Life I Have Real Friends....

I Find Just A Little Bit Of Happiness....

Week Later My Shits Under Water And Im In Fucking Virginia

Whenever There Is A Glimpse Of Hope.. Just A Little Bit Happyness

Shit Gets Turned Sidewayz

And I End Up Like I Am Now

Sad And Slightly Depressed

Im Starting 2 Think Maybe That These Dreams And Aspirations I Have For Myself.....

Maybe... Just Maybe

They Are as People Say They Are....

Maybe Success And Happyness just werent made for me....

Maybe I SHould Just Settle For Mediocrity

Becuase I Dont Think Ill Ever Be Able 2 Achieve Greatness

~ Santo ~

Wow....

I Cant beleive Its Been A Whole year....

A WHOlE FUCKING YEAR!!!

Jesus It Doesnt Feel Like A Year

This Time Last year Alot Was Different...

You Were NOT preggers lol

It Was you That Was Avoiding Me 

Instead of The Other Way Around

And It Was I That Thought I Couldnt Live Without You....

And not The Other Way Arouund....

Alot has Changed....

We Both Have Realized The Error of Our Ways

And Gosh oh mighty How The Tables have Turned

I Would Be Lying If I Said I Didnt Think About You Now And Then....

I Sumtimes think About The Good Times We Had

All the Memorable Moments

Things Werent ALWAYS bad between you and I

But Then I Am Reminded of how U Manipulated Me....

YOU MADE A FUCKING FOOL OUT OF ME

You Were The Puppeteer... I Was Your Puppet

I Remeber All The Times That u Absolutey Ruined

(Fbla Atlanta Trip Mostly)

How U Broke Up With Me Minutes After I Found out My grandmother Had Died 

Just 2 Fuck With My Head

I Remeber The Countless Other Times you Completley Fucked Me Over

And I Smile

Because No Longer do I have 2 Be Subjected 2 your Tyranny

I equate or relationship 2 Slavery

Sure Massa Can Be Nice Sumtimes

But 99 Percent Of The Time He's hittin yo Ass With that Whip

Getting Over you Was Top 3 Best Things Ive Done in My life

I May Not Be Very Happy Now

But Im Possitive Me Getting over you Was the key 2 Me Finding Happyness 

Its only A Matter Of time B4 The Next One Comes Around And Sweeps Me Off My Feet

But I Will Go Into The Next Relationship A Seasoned Veteran

With The Valuable Lessons You Taught Me In Hand

The NXT SHALL NOT BE LiKE THE FORMER....

Promise

~ Santo ~

Sorry For The Delay......

I Know Its Been A Hot Ass Minute since My Last Post....

IM SORRY......

ive been working (ALOT)

36 hour weeks

Studying and Homework as soon as i get off

Partying And Bull Shiting when Im Not doing The First 2 Lol's

Ive Seriously Neglected Blogging... 

and for that I Am Truely Sorry

Anyways

The Catchup is Here

Stay Tuned 

Blogging All Day 2morrow

~ Santo ~

Piano Lessons...

"Dont Bet On Me, Im A Long Shot"

Ohhh Em Fuckin Gee

This Song Is My Life Story

All I Really Have In This World Is My Dream

I Want 2 Own The Worlds Most Renowned Skate Boutique

I Want 2 Raise A Child Of My Own

I Want 2 Marry A Wonderful Women 

And I Want 2 Retire 2 The French Riviera

"My Odds Are A Million 2 One"

Ohhhh The Nay Sayers.....

They Are Every Fucking Where

Both My Parents Think Im Out Of My Fucking Mind

My Business Teacher Said It Would Never Work

Church Folk Say I Should Just Get A Desk Job

Seems Like Only My Bestest Of Friends Even Think I Stand A Chance

"They Say ' Son You Fail At Life If U Fail Piano Lessons '. I Say ' So be it, And Walk Out The Door"

Sumtimes...

You Just Have 2 Ignore The Naysayers

THIS IM MY DREAM

Who Are You 2 Tell Me It Wont Work

It Is For This Reason That I Must Succeed

Not 2 Prove The Naysayers Wrong...

But 2 Prove Myself Right

"But In That Million I Might Be The One"

I Want Nothing More Than 2 Get This Shit In

It Is Not Just My Dream

It Is What I Live For...

I Wake Up In The Morning And I Have 2 Thoughts...

"Wonder If Marley's Up Yet"

And

"How Am I Gonna Get Closer 2 My Dream 2day?"

Nothing And I Mean Nothing Is Gonna Stop Me

Random Acts Of Dopeness Is Gonna Be The Worlds Foremost And World renowned SkateBoutique

I Am Gonna Marry The Woman Of My Dreams...

Our Son Is Gonna Be Extreemly Handsome

And I Can Already Taste That Fresh Baked Bread In The South Of France....

Yummmmyy  = ]

~ Santo ~

 

Fakin Like Turkey Bacon

If U Have 2 Ask Yourself The Question

"Am I  Being Myself Right Now"

Then Their Is A 90 Percent Chance You're

Fakin Like Turkey Bacon

Never In All My Years Have I Seen So Many Niggaz

With Levi 514's, V Neck Tees, Nike Sb's, And Wayfarers

Not Saying Anythings Wrong With Wearing This Stuff...

But Are You Wearing It For You...

Or Are You Wearing It 2 Improve Other People's Perception of You

Personally...

I Couldnt Give 2 Fucks About A Trend

Or 

For That Matter

I Couldnt Give 2 Fucks About What Other People Think About Me

I Would Like 2 Think I Am A Kind, Loving, Easy 2 Get Along With Kinda Guy

(Mina Or Marley tell Me If Im Wrong)

If You Dont Like Me Becuz Of My Outward Appearence

Fuck You

Str8 Like That

Your Loss

Cuz I Prolly Dont Associate Myself With your Kind Anyway

but i digress lol's

Another Blog For Another Day

Simply Put

The True You Will Always Be A Million Times More Beautiful Than Anything Artificial

If You're Naturally Talkative And Goofy... 

Dont Try 2 Be The Cool Calm Collected Nigga

Play Your Role

Stay In Your Lane

BE YOURSELF

~Santo~

I Really Miss

Being Boo'd Up
Idk Why Tho
Its Kinda Weird 2 Me
Where is This Sudden Relationship Rush Coming From?

As Much As My Ex Has Ruined The Concept Of Relationships for me

I really Feel The Need 2 Be In One Right Now

And I Just Dont Get It...

As Much As I Used 2 Hate It...
I Miss The Early Morning Convo's
The Lazy Days Kickin It On The Couch
Goin 2 Harbor View And Watchin Terrible Movies lol

Buying Flowers Just For The Fuck Of It

2 bad tho...
Cuz Im Getting The Feeling This Is Gonna Be A 

SOLO DOLO SUMMER... = [ 

SYKE

As A Great Man Once Said

"Nigga Its Time 2 Get Up Off This Bench... 

Take This Hot Ass Warm Up Off...

And Go Hit Sum Three's On These Niggas"

If U want Sumthin Bad Enough... 

Make It Hapn Capn...

Only Question Is..

Do I Have The Balls 2 Do It???

Hmmmmmm....

~Santo~

Friends Part Deux

Jasmina "Itblykdatsumtimez" Bazemore...
Welcome 2 The Exclusive Club
Reserved For Only The Select Few
The Realest Of The Real...
Welcolme 2 The Close Nit Group Of People I Call

FRIENDS

This, Of Course, Comes With Sum Perks

Round The Clock Companion Ship....

Un Wavering Support

Automatic Back Coverage In The Event Sum Dumbass Gets Bold

And All I Ask For In Return...

Is Your Friendship....

My Friends Are My Family (Since My Family Sucks Eggs)

Yall Mean The World 2 Me...

U keep Me On track And Focused....

I Love U All Dearly

Not Everyone I Bang With Is My Friend Tho....

I Have Very Few Real Friends

I Have PLENTY of Associates...

Associates Dont Get Full Santo Coverage 

Lol

Soooo

2 The Old Members

WAT UP MOE!!!

2 The New Members

WAT UP MOE!!!!

Lol's

Outy

~Santo~

I Gotta Tell U That My Love Is True... I Know I Still Got a Growin Up 2 Do....

I Will Be Whatever U Want Me 2 Be...
When Ever U Want Me 2 Be It...
I Told Myself Months Ago...
Sumthings Are Worth The Wait...
Its No Rush On ANYTHING...

You Say Your Afraid Of Commitment...
And That Everytime Love Comes Knocking
U Run...
And..
I Understand...
Sum Scars Take Years 2 Heal... Maybe Even Decade's
But Im Willing 2 Wait...

You Shouldnt Doubt Yourself Either
Your Easily The Dopest Person Ive Ever Met
Your Soo Amazingly Talented..
And The Funny Part Is
U Dont Even See It
Your Humility Might Be Your Greatest Feature
I Can See The Greatness In You
And Im Sure Everybody Around U See's It 2
And The Day That U See It In Yourself...
(Its A Wrap For The Game)
So Just Find Comfort In Knowing That your Gonna Be Mindelessly Successful
And Even Better Than That...
Your Gonna Be Happy =~]


ohh yeahhh
And Since U Said We Neva Do The Mono E Mono Thing....
What U Doin This Friday?
lol

~Santo~

My Heart Sigh's.....

When I Think What Could Have Been....

Grrrr....

These Past 6 Months Have Been soooooo Hard

Not 2 Mention Lonely....

And at Times I Wonder What It Would Be Like If We Were....

Still 2gether.....

But Its At Times Like Those

Where I Slap Myself

Because Being Lonely And Unhappy By Myself

Is A MILLION Times Better Than Being MisUsed And MisTreated

With You....

I Have Come 2 A Realization

I Wasnt Really In Love With U 

As Much As I Was In Love With The Concept Of Being In Love

(Confusing Right Lol)

Idk

I Cant Help But Miss U At Times

And I Honnestly Hope You're doing wonderfully

I Wish Nothing But Success 2 You And The Nigga U Left Me 4

And Your Son's gonna Be A Handful ( Just Like His Mama Lol )

Im Not Really Salty....

Ok Maybe A Lil Bit...

But Our Split Was Nessasary 

It Taught Me Lessons That Have Helped 2 Mold ME As A Man

And It Has Shown Me The Importance Of Finding REAL Love....

Anyways...

Im Writing This Letter That I Know U Will Never Read

As A Form Of Closure

I Really Just Need 2 Be Able 2 Move On

COMPLETLY 

I Told U B4 That I Would Always Love You

This Is True...

But.....

I Can Honnestly Say I No Longer Have Any Romantic Or Physical Love Left For U

And It Would Be Nice If u Didnt Call Or Txt Me Attempting 2 Re Kindle A Dead Flame

Peace....

~ Santo ~

Wow

Okkk 

So I Never Edit My Shit

Just Because I Want Each Post 2 Be A True Representation Of EXACTLY How I Felt At The Time

But....

Just a Clarification....

Im Not A Smug, Pompous Jerk...

Nor Will I Ever Be One...

But I Am Gonna Start Believing In Myself

FINALLY

Its Gonna Start With Skool Nxt Semester...

Im Gonna DESTROY Skool

Nothing Less Than Str8 A's Joe

No More Drinking

No More Smoking

I Have Come 2 Realize I Used These As An Excuse

As A Crutch

I Was Attempting 2 Avoid Pain And Hurt That i Should have Been Meeting Head On

Well...

Maybe Il Have a Brewkey Every now And Then Lol

U Dont Get Drunk Off Beer.... 

AGHHHH

This New Found understanding Is AMAZING

I Feel Like a Mili...

Seriously

Anything That Happened Or Didnt Happen This Weekend Doesnt Even Matter 2 Me Anymore

Cuz The Future Is Looking Pretty Rediculous Right Now

And 2 My Friends

I Am Bringing All Of U With Me...

My New Found Confidence Is Contagious

U Will Catch It

Or I Will Give It 2 You

Cuz Its Never Been Just About Me...

Im Confident Not Conceited

And I Wouldnt Be Denzel If I Didnt Take Sumbody With Me 

Whille Im Experiencing My Elevation

Idk

Im Soooo Excited

for like...

EVERYTING

The Future Is Gonna Be AMAZING

God Is On MA Side...

I Know He Is

Baby Jesus Is A Beast...

Idk What Else 2 write...

lol

(speechless for the first time)

~Santo~

I Feel....

Really Good 2day...

Contrary 2 How I Should Feel

I Skated..

Chilled With My Family

Skated Sum More...

U Get The Idea Lol....

Its Seems As Tho Everytime I Listen 2 Late Registration... I Take Sumthing New From It

Its Like...  The Album Is So Deep

That There Is Always Sumthing I Missed On The Previous Listen

Whille I Was Feeling Shitty Saturday Night

I Played The Shit...

And This Time Around

I Adopted The Most Primal of Kanye's

CONFIDENCE

"Made A Mill Myself, And Im Still Myself

And Ima Look In The Mirror If I Need Sum Help"

Ive Spoken About My SelfConciousness B4....

But Im Pretty Sure Nobody Will Ever Fully Understand....

But....

Ill Try Again Anyway For The Sake Of This Blog's Message

Okkkkk...

so Its Like Beyond Me Not Liking The Way I Look...

Or The Way I Talk....

I Like...

Hate Myself

In The Most Literal Since Of The Phrase

Well

Atleast 

I Used 2....

My Last Listen of Late Registration Showed Me Sumthing

I May Not Be Much....

But I Am The Shit...

And I Matter

I Am A Being With Limitless Potential..

I Am Intelligent

I Am Caring

And Sumday

Muh Effers Gonna Be Saying My Name...

Its Funny

Marley And Ashleigh Have Literally Been Telling Me This For Months

But I Was So Stuck On What Was Wrong...

I Just Took It As Them Trying 2 Gas Me Up

But Its Fucking True!!!

How Could I Have Overlooked My Own Dopeness???

And On That Note...

I Must Reiterate.... A Previous Blog (or was it a note on Facebook Idk Lol)

Idk What Ima Do When I Grow Up...

Nor Do I Know Who I Will Be With

Or Where I Will Be...

But I Do Know

Im Gonna Be Extreemly Successful

Kanye West Said On His Blog (paraphrasing)

I Developed This Huge Ego... Because I Needed 2 Convince Myself That I Was As Dope As I Wanted Everybody Else 2 Think I Am... Otherwise I Would Have Settled For Mediocrity...

My Old Dream Consisted Of Being Happy... Nothing More... Nothing Less

Fuck That Shit

I Dont Just Wanna Be Happy

I Wanna Be Happy And Rich

I Want 2 Be Happy And THE BEST....

And Im Not Gonna Get Any sleep till this Happens

Santo 2.0 Bitches

Fuck With Him...

Cuz I Fucks With Me

Lmao

Should I Feel....

Stood up???

Cuz i do....

U Were Most Def My Key 2 A Happy And Blissful Weekend

But Your Not Here

Idk If U Understand

But I Want 2 spend Time With You More than Anything Else in The World at This Point

Maybe I Sound Creeper ish butttttt

I Really Really Really Really Like U

Like... Alot

And It Sucks That i Didnt Get 2 See U 2day...

But...

Ill Get Over It...

Im Not Salty...

There is Always A Good Reason

And Im Sure U Have One

I Mean

Even If U Didnt

Im Still Not Salty

But It Just Sucks That I Never Get 2 Spend Any Time With U

I think Im Done Ranting

Peace homies

  ~Santo~

Finding Forever Part Deux......

FUCK YOU MEAN?????

Lol

What Kinda African Jungle Music Was I Talkin Bout

This Is Not Me????

WHAT THE FUCK DENZEL!!!!!

Thats how U Know I Was Caught Up In My Own Emotions

I Had Just Had A Really Life Changing Night

I Was DELUSIONAL!!!!!

I Denzel Adams Am Not A Thinker

I Am Not An Intellectual Like Ashleigh

I Am not Gifted With Words Like Marley

I Am A Lover...

Its Who I Am...

Its What Im Meant 2 Do...

And Thats Why That Note Was ALL WRONG

That Note Was Basically Me Running Away From Who I Am...

All Cuz I Got A Lil 2 Fucked Up The Night Before Lol

I Thought I Needed 2 Change...

But Naw

I Just Need 2 Hone The Already Dope Ninja Inside Of Me

It Took Me All Of 5 minutes After Writing This Note 2 Find Myself....

5 Minutes And 2 Plays Of Kanye West's Street Lights 

Lol

Maybe Thats Why I Kept Going Back 2 Toneeshia...

Despite The Way She Treated Me...

She Was A Vessel Though With I Could Empty My 

Endless Supply Of Love

I Saw The Risk...

I Knew She Was No Good...

But The Opportunity 2 Love And Be Loved...

It Was 2 much For Lil Old Me 2 Pass Up

And Yes I Know

I Got Hurt...

Hurt Worse Than I Could Have Ever Fathomed....

But....

I Cant Let One Person...

One Bad Experience

Change Everything That I Believe In

"And Nooooo Matter What You'll Never Take That From Meeee"

And There In Lies The Problem...

The First Problem

The Only Problem

Im Not Afraid Of Love....

Im Willing 2 Put My Heart On The Line

Sure It Takes Sum Time 2 Repair It When Its Broken

But Shit.....

If I Can Do It With My Akward Ass

It Can Be Done....

Im Sorry, Really

But I Cant Hide It....

I Cant Run From Who I Am....

Or How I Feel...

And With That Being Said....

I Honor And Respect Everyting U Told Me.....

I Understand EXACTLY Where Your Cooming From

It Makes PERFECT Sense

You, Like Me, Are A Human Being

With Feelings

And Needs...

The Brakes have Been Pumped....

But....

The Car Is Not In Park....

"Eventually... You Will Have 2 Face These Demons In Your Closet

Be Brave...

And Put Your Foot In their Asses...

Never Be Afraid Of That Gut Instinct...

And Never Be Afraid Of Who You Are On The Inside

Cuz That Fear WILL interupt your Destiny, If U Let It"

My Dad told Me That 2day

And 2 Think I Thought He didnt Understand Me.....

Nigga's Dope.....

Just Keep That In Mind Ninja's

.....PEACE.....

    ~Santo~

Friends

They Are All I Have In This World
And Tho They May Need Me at Sumpoint...
They Will Never Ever Understand The Magnitude With Which I Need Them....

Growing Up... I Really Didnt have Any
I Was Always waayyy 2 Quiet...
Always A Lil Different Than The Others
So Niggas Tended 2 Stray Away From Me....
Ever Since... Ive Had The WORST self esteem issues

I Think I Always Will...
2day I Called My Self Trying 2 Rectify These Issues
But... That Is Wayyy 2 Great an Issue For Me 2 Tackle Alone
I Tried... And I Ended Up A Big Sobbing Heap...
It Was 2 Much For Me...
The Scars Are Wayy 2 Deep...
Sum May Never Heal...

BUT!!!!!!
My Friends
They Are My Diversion
My Escape From Reality
They Make Me Feel (For Once) Like I Am Sumthing
Like I have Potential
That Im Not As Big Of A Looser As I May Think I Am
Though They May Not Always Have The Exact Right Words For Me
They Always Have Well Meaning Intentions
And Honnestly
Thats All I Ever Wanted 2 Begin With....

I Love U Guys
I May Not Be Happy...
But When Im With Yall
A Permenant Smile Is Affixed 2 My Face
And For This...
I Am Forever And Eternally In Your Debt...

Thank You

~santo~

This Blog

Was Created.....
Because Im A Human Being
With Feelings
Alot Of Em
lol
I Need A Place 2 Express Them
And The Dopeness Wasnt the Right Place
So As Ashleigh has The Remedy
And Nia Has Blunts And Boats
I Have The Love Below....

Secondly the Title "The Love Below"
Has Absolutley Nothing 2 Do With Love
The Dopeness Joe Is "Speaker Box"
This Is The Love Below...

Get It????
Got It????
Goooood!!!

Peace Homies
And Enjoy
The Love Below....