Friends

They Are All I Have In This World
And Tho They May Need Me at Sumpoint...
They Will Never Ever Understand The Magnitude With Which I Need Them....

Growing Up... I Really Didnt have Any
I Was Always waayyy 2 Quiet...
Always A Lil Different Than The Others
So Niggas Tended 2 Stray Away From Me....
Ever Since... Ive Had The WORST self esteem issues

I Think I Always Will...
2day I Called My Self Trying 2 Rectify These Issues
But... That Is Wayyy 2 Great an Issue For Me 2 Tackle Alone
I Tried... And I Ended Up A Big Sobbing Heap...
It Was 2 Much For Me...
The Scars Are Wayy 2 Deep...
Sum May Never Heal...

BUT!!!!!!
My Friends
They Are My Diversion
My Escape From Reality
They Make Me Feel (For Once) Like I Am Sumthing
Like I have Potential
That Im Not As Big Of A Looser As I May Think I Am
Though They May Not Always Have The Exact Right Words For Me
They Always Have Well Meaning Intentions
And Honnestly
Thats All I Ever Wanted 2 Begin With....

I Love U Guys
I May Not Be Happy...
But When Im With Yall
A Permenant Smile Is Affixed 2 My Face
And For This...
I Am Forever And Eternally In Your Debt...

Thank You

~santo~