Catchin' Feelins'

"Ive Got... 99 Problems

And Their All BITCHES"

Sike Naw...

Lol

Just A Cool Line

But I Do Have A Problem...

Or Is It A Problem

Feelins

Despite Intuition Telling Me Otherwise

I Have Caught Them

And Not In The Typical "Ill Beat Yo Ass" Sense

More Like The Literal "I Now Have Feelins That I Didnt Have In July" Way

The Game Plan Was Friendship

But I Find Myself Yearning For More

Ive Never Been One For Complacency

Never Been One 2 "Settle"

I Just Go For It

GRAB LIFE BY THE BALLZ

As Moolah Would Say

But This Instance Of Catchin Feelins Has a Distinct Drawback

DISTANCE

A Good Friend Of Mine Told Me Yesterday That

"Distance Makes the Heart Grow"

And I Must Say I Believe Her...

Maybe That Is The Explanation For This Note

But It Also Gives way 2 Jealousy

And Envy

And A Whole List Of Other Emotions That are Honnestly Brand New 2 Me

(Idk Where Im Going With This Lol )

I Guess I Just Need 2 Clear My Mind

This Post Has No Real Structure

Or Definite Point for That Matter

Maybe Thats Why I Like It

Idk

I Miss Our 8 Hour Long Convo's

I Miss Talking To you

These Dreams Ive Been Having All Seem 2 Have A Common Denominator

(Loosing You)

Which Is Funny

Because in The Literal Sense

I Dont Even Have You

Maybe Im Just Catchin' Feelins'

This Time in The Traditional Sense

Yet Another Example Of My Psuedo Envy For My Collegiate Friends

As They Pass Me By In Accademia

My College Friends

Who Seem 2 Be Plowing Past Me In The H.O.V Lane Of Lifes Highway

My College Friends

Who Now... As Of Today

All Have Girlfriends

But Im Not An Envious Person

So Im Sure This Is Not The Case

And These "Feelins" are Not Brand New

So Im MORE Sure This Is Not The Case

I Have Come 2 The Conclusion that I Caught The Feelins The First Time We Met

And They Grew The First Time We Chilled

And They Have Been Intensifying Since The Day You Departed

(Yup Yup.. Still Freestylin Without Rhyme Or Reason Lol)

But Feelins Are Only Feelins

And They Mean Nothing If The Feelin' Being Felt Isnt Mutual

"Time Provides The Rope... But LOVE Will Tie The Slipknot...."

I Guess A Nigga's Tryna Get Hung In His Feelins

Lol

~ Santo ~

I Really Just Dont Want.....

The NEXT

To Be Like The LAST....

THIS is the terrifying aspect of loving some one.....

~ Santo ~

Am I High?

Havent Smoked In A Lonnnng Whille

But Ive Been High On Life For Bout a Month Now

Everyday I Here Your Voice

Is Like A Day With The Spliff In My Hand

**Bliss**

Just This Time Last Year

I Couldnt See Myself Having Feelings For Anyone

EVER

I Swore Off Sex

I Swore Off Dating

I Swore Off WOMEN

But *Sigh*

There Is Just Something About This Girl From Portsmouth

She Just Gets Me...

Not On That Empathetic Type Shit

Like She Actually GETS ME

99% Of The Time, We Are Thinking The EXACT Same Thing

99% Of The Time We Are On The EXACT Same Page

Its Slightly Disturbing

Slightly Erotic (lol)

But MostlyIts

Euphoric

I HATE Talking On The Phone

But I LOVE Talking To You On The Phone

And Im Pretty Sure You Are The Only Person With The Ability 2 Make Me Contradict Myself In This Manner

I Genuinely Miss The Time We Got 2 Spend 2gether At The End Of This Summer

I Miss The Kisses

The Hugs

The 45 Minute Embraces

The Failed Ollie Attempts

The Va Fitteds At The Corner Store

The Baptismal Swims

The Mosquito Bites

But Mostly

I Just Miss You

And It Is In This Missing You That I Find My Greatest High

The Thought Of Their Being An US

No Longer Just A Santo

Nor Just A Zombie

But A Union Of The 2

Wishful Thinking

Or Destiny

Only Time Will Tell

But In The Mean Time Between Time

Im Gonna Keep Taking These Tokes Of Life

Cuz Apparently Im Puffin On Sum Gooooood Shit

~ Santo ~

Is THIS what i have become.....

Soooo

G-Shock Says Its 244....

I Have Just Awoken 2 my Mother Standing Over My Bed.....

She Has A Very Worried Look On Her Face

My Pillow Is Soaked....

My Eyes Are Blood Shot Red

Apparently... for the last hour or so....

I Have Been Having A Horrible Horrible Nightmare

My Mother Has Quoted Me Saying

"Take Me, Not Her... She Has So Much More 2 live For"

And

"Run! He's Got A Gun"

I Never Talk In My Sleep.... Ever

And For The Last 5 Mins Or So...

I Had Been Crying Profusely...

I Usually Remember My Dreams

But I Have Absolutley No Idea What This One Is About

(gotta hunch tho)

Gonna Pray

a lil meditatoin

Then Hopefully Back 2 sleep.....

Is This Is What I Have Become??

A Slave 2 My Own Emotions....

They Know They Cannot Completly Conquer Me Whille Im Awake

So Their Attempting 2 Attack My Sub-Consious???

Or Am I Just Going Crazy.....

Who Knows (Shoulder Shrug)

~ SANTO ~